too many streetlights

i dropped my brother off at some boy scout thing and headed home. it was a 15-minute drive back, and i like to take different routes each time so i have time to think...about things...it's funny, i used to be so nervous when i drove with my learner's permit, but since i received my license, driving is like second-nature to me now...it leaves my mind room to wander.

but even on the road least travelled, there were too many streetlights. i try to have a few moments of peace where i can think for myself, and there were glaring lights; they seemed to flash as i passed under each one.
for once, i'd like to just travel along a road where the so-called "laws of modern society" didn't interfere with my thoughts, or even my life. i don't know why, but with just my headlights on, and no streelights, i feel a sort of solace, peace...where i can be alone, but not lonely, you know what i mean? kind of, a state of meditation, of sorts. where i can let my thoughts drift off to the heavens.

but it seems sivilization must conquer every last square mile and every last square inch to thrive properly, when it already seems to be doing fine letting those small, untainted pieces of the world alone. but like sivilization, people always need more. funny, we always make a big deal out of making it "to the top", yet even when we're balancing on the top rung of whatever ladder it is we've decided to climb, we call up for another ladder, for the one(s) we've already climbed aren't tall enough to reach the heavens. just a modern-day Babel, just more gradual.

solace. i long for my own corner, however small, to live and love life in
peace.

-d