ups!
staying on top of schoolwork.
not working at all this weekend.
picked up a violin for the first time in months.
joining political/debate club.
going out of town for the first time since spring.
seeing my dad this weekend.
applied for two scholarships monday night. online.
it rained a little last night.
modern class on friday.
leaving for spokane weekend after next...

downs.
still have to watch a documentary in the library.
should be working on "person" essay.
don't think i remember how to play a violin.
spider crawled across me last night and i still don't know where it is.
sucky hours this week.
the election.
leaving for spokane weekend after next...

i'm not sure what to expect. i don't want to know. i do.
i haven't told anyone about this. no one else knows. i don't think they should; i throw too many self-pity parties.

every time i imagine telling someone, it just seems awkward. like i don't trust them? that's ridiculous. but

this is such, such a heavy weight on my heart.

i love her. so. much.

-d