sringara

I want you to be mine. Now.

Soon.

My best friend asked me if I had ever "been in love? The real thing." I honestly don't know. As far as what I think being in love is, and I have high standards for my emotions concerning that, no. I have not. I may have come close in one...maybe two...cases, but if I've let them go so easily, then maybe they weren't as close to love as I thought.

The only love I know is unconditional; the love I have for my family and closest friends. It's when I think about them, just think about them, and my stomach does a turn and my heart leaps and my gut knows...I just know. I would do anything for them, without asking a bit in return. In my mind, also, being "in love," "true" love, is unconditional. But for some reason, it's different.

I keep thinking about it; I mean, I don't know if I could ever love a man more than I love my family. Ever. And maybe that's not entirely bad. But maybe I haven't met, haven't truly known, someone that I would do anything for. Unconditional. And maybe I'm too young to worry about that.

But all I know right now is that I want you to be mine. I hope that doesn't sound too possesive, because I don't mean that I want to own you. But in some sense, I want you to belong to me. Be with me. Now.

Soon.