big deal.

you know what feeling sucks?

disappointment.

you know why?

because when you realize, and i mean really realize, that people you grew up around that you thought were intelligent, as soon as the bottle (or whatever) touches their lips, that all goes to shit. they end up looking like the rest of the moronic zombies who walk this earth.

some of them, i couldn't care any less about. but others, some that you admired or even had the chance to be friends with...even the people you thought knew better...well.

i should know by now that i, as far as my age demographic in this valley goes, am part of a dying minority. i am a person who doesn't feel the need to turn to that shit just to unwind, or just for the hell of it. maybe it's because i grew up being taught that kind of stuff, but even after i've started separating myself from organized religion, i just see this as stupid. just plain stupid. you don't look awesome with your mouth hanging open and your senses impaired. i like to know where i'm walking and make it there without falling down a thousand times, thanks so much. 

really--what is it about alcohol? call me a puritan, but there's honestly no attraction it holds for me. really, honestly. it smells disgusting in the bottle, and i don't think it smells much better on your breath in large quantities. what is it about drugs? any of them? it just makes you look stupid. an entire generation, needing liver transplants, but those of us living would like to keep ours while we can still breathe, thanks, okay? i honestly don't see the goddamn point in all of this.

i should know better. i just hate that i find out. i don't if ignorance is better or not.

there. just my nonsensical rant for the day/night. resume the revelry.

-d