if this was supposed to be some sort of premonition, then the universe gave me the worst fucking premonition it could

I've had the strangest feeling for the past couple of days.

It hit me like a semi the other day during rehearsal. I had a bunch of energy, and then WHAM! Something hit me in the gut. The weirdest thing was that I don't know where the hell it came from. It was like some sniper took a shot at me from somewhere up in the cats--white hot, right through my skin.

I feel like I'm balancing on the edge of something, but I don't know what's going to happen if I fall. I don't know if it's good or bad; I don't know if I should be apprehensive and defend myself against it, or if I should just let it happen. It's not the show--I'm excited about that--and it's not my impending graduation--I'm scared shitless when I think about June.

I'm staring straight ahead, my eyes are wide open. I feel like I'm looking at this...thing...dead in the eye, but my vision is completely blurry.

I know that this thing, whatever it is, is looming, perched, on the horizon line, slowly moving forward. I could say that what hit me was a sense of foreboding, but that would imply something negative about it. I'm a little more scared now than usual, but for the most part, I'm just confused.

All I know is that it's big. It's there. And it's on its way.