11.04.2025

field notes from the worst day of my life

11:12am
I didn't want this.

I never wanted this.
I relied too much on a supposedly guaranteed future together that I didn't plan for anything else.

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12:08pm
I need to stay alive for Clifford.

If anything, I need to give him a good life.

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1:19pm
All the meaning has left.

The meaning in everything has left everything.

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10:50pm
It was you and me

In this life and the next
And the next
And the next
And the next

You said in your vision two years ago
That you'd seen to the end of time? I think?
And that it was me, it was always me


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