should've spoken to myself-in-retrospect

"be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue...

do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.
and the point is, to live everything.
live the questions now.
perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."

-ranier maria rilke

and after all, the entire thing i do not take seriously anymore.

but they are beautiful words.