the purposeful Freudian slip

I all know where this is going.

Maybe I shouldn’t have even tried. If I keep thinking the opposite of what I hope happens then maybe it will actually happen, as things are wont to do in my life, but maybe I should just let it go. It wasn't anything but a wishful fantasy. This is not how things of this nature usually happen, and nature itself is telling me that.

What do I care? I've got classes to take, rehearsals to keep me busy, and more than enough amazing friends and family members to grow even closer to.

I do care. I'm tired of it. I'm tired. I'm tired of even slightly obsessing over this whole situation. I can't lose sleep over this; if I lose any more sleep I will need to start taking melatonin.

Pipe dreams are much safer things when you don’t hit your head on them.