distance (part one)

He once said, in a message: "You know what's nice? You're not smothering. This feels nice." Or something to that effect.
And that's what made me think: He wouldn't say that if he didn't think we were in some kind of relationship, would he? He's not my boyfriend, I'm not his girlfriend, I don't own him--but he started owning me from then on, without knowing it.

I don't remember exactly what he said--after I tore into him (by way of text), I saved all our little messages and put them in a text file and buried it deep in the recesses of secret computer files that I touch but once a year, just to see what kind of person I was and what I've become since then.

But I remember him saying I wasn't smothering, and it was nice to read that.

-Dana Winter