i've been ill

but it feels like spring today, the sky is way too blue and people are bugging me keeping me indoors. i'm still coughing my lungs out and tired of overly confident people. i'm a little delusional today, i'm distracted, and he's already got someone to be with. i wish things worked out in my favor for once, but then i look around and realize that they already do.

i don't understand why people dirty themselves, why they ruin themselves with all this drinking and drugs. it's all in excess, apparently there aren't enough pool tables in this town. i hate pool, i'd rather be swimming.

i feel like going to seattle, and i just felt like writing today for the sake of writing.

-d