returns of sorts (rush, no rush)

glad to see both of you again. although maybe one a bit more, because whatever feelings i had for you back in the past have disappeared. you and i are completely platonic, and i'm glad for it.

because pretending like things didn't happen, sir--i don't know whether to be relieved or a little angry, or to just let it go. probably the last.

so give me a straight answer, because i know you are still taken--do you like me or not? and then what are you going to do about it?

dammitdammitdammitdammitdammitdammitdammit

I'M SORRY GOD, but there's also four others, three of which were there tonight (and one of that number which left early) that are vying for my attention and it sounds hypocritical and false but it breaks my heart to be in two different roles. i don't want to break any of your hearts, if those are what're on the lines, or at least hurt your feelings, but i am too conflicted about other things right now. and when i fail one thing soon, i will likely not see anyone for a very long time (you think messing up a scholarship application will set my mother off...)

and you, sir: do not go back to confusing me again.

God forget the Queen (apologies, Your Majesty); God save me.

-d