i've got a new time

I walked in the drizzling rain today; I warmed my hands with the heat of freshly printed resumes; I had things to do, money to make, savings to drain, an Auto-drama to rethink about; I hear about you and wonder why I find it a good way to start this quarter, but it is, something fresh, and the stomach didn't drop much; I walk everywhere to the beat in my headphones keep falling out of my ears (keep falling out of my head) in the jeans that fit the best and I wonder how I'll make it through the next eleven weeks and for once I am completely not confident, but I feel like it'll be okay, it'll all be okay, and the whole time

"Ooo, we used to wait,
Ooo, we used to wait,
Sometimes it never came"

You do give more, and I try to give more but I feel like my monetary situation: empty. Almost. The sound of hardwood floors and cheap rent split six ways sounds appealing, but would it be worth the unfamiliarity? It might. My mom told me she never wanted me to move again until school was done; I might take her up on that quite literally. I don't know, is this how I'm dealing with what I see as the two biggest focal points in my life right now? I think one's dwindling, and when it's her, I can't get mad, because she's good for you. I'm thinking of blues dancing and eating right for once and wondering if potential employers will even think to contact me by email and a younger-faced blond who just shaved and talked to me and I wonder where the writing's gone

"I used to write.
I used to write letters, I used to sign my name.
I used to sleep at night..."

Ramble. Sleep. This is therapeutic.